Finding My Soul

This morning I went to my first mass singing with a church choir at the St. Dunstan Church. I was a very involved practicing Catholic before I stopped going due to differences in belief ie. me being gay, so the mass wasn't new to me at all. It was like something that sticks with you and you never forget. It was pretty cool to be singing again. The only thing that was weird was the part of the mass where you are supposed to show each other the sign of peace. The masses that I have worshiped and attended, we shook hands at this point. When this part of the mass came, the people didn't shake hands. The showed the palm of their hands and that was it. It really threw me off because I was like... wtf? Ok. I guess I'm just a weirdo, but whatever. Anyway, the accompanist had a very nice voice. After mass ended, I complimented her on her voice and she complimented on mine even though I felt like I was forcing my voice. I was one of three guys that were there.

After church, I had planned to go hang out with my friend Sunny and Jamie. I didn't get to hang out with them last time since I was attending Tina's Pleasure Party, so I figured since I was already in the peninsula, that I would stop by and visit. It was a pretty cool day hanging out with them since I hadn't had any sort of contact with any friends since the previous weekend. I guess that would make me a loner, huh? Anyway, their puppies were excited to seem and kept coming over to lick my hands. One of the puppies started to hump my leg, but I didn't notice since he's like 95lbs of hugeness. They were watching Jeffrey on Logo and it's been a while since I've seen that show. I went back and forth between rooms since Jamie was in the office on his computer. Sunny was wanting to have Irish Lamb Stew for dinner and it was Jamie's turn to cook. So, he picked out a recipe from the food network website and printed out a recipe. It said that it needed a Dutch oven to cook the stew. Here I was thinking that a Dutch oven was an actual oven, but it turned out that it's like a specialized type of cookware.

We went to Target to purchase a Dutch oven and then to Whole foods to get the ingredients for the stew. There were a lot of cuties at the store. There was this one tall, blond, blue-eyed white guy with glasses who was totally clean cut. He was hot. I kept checking him out whenever he walked by me, but of course he was married. After we got all the ingredients for the stew we headed over to the checkout. As we waited, this really cute guy with glasses and tattoos named TJ invited us over to his register. He reminded me of Milo Ventimiglia from Heroes. Nice, tall, skinny white boy with glasses with black clean cut hair. Jamie couldn't figure out if he was gay or not because he was clean cut, but he had the tattoos all over his arms. I don't have much gaydar, but then again I am attracted to those straight boys.

We headed back to their place where Sunny made sandwiches for lunch. Another movie from Logo was on called the Big Eden. I've always wanted to see it. I recognized one of the main actors, but I couldn't figure out his name. He was cute, but I didn't see the movie from the beginning, so I didn't really know what was going on. I wish we had Logo here at the house, but I don't know. I might have to invest in it in the future. Jamie started to prepare the stew while Sunny cleaned house from all the pet dander from the two puppies that they had shed. There was a weeks worth on the floor. I helped them out by washing and putting away clean dishes. I know they didn't want me to help out, but I wanted to especially since they fed me and were going to feed me more. After the movie was done and Sunny was finished vacuuming, he and I played Scrabble and watched the second disc of Glee. After a while, Sunny's friend (fag hag) Eva, came by to hang out as well. She brought some pies that we ate after for dessert. The stew was pretty good as well as the toasted and sliced french baguette brushed with olive oil and basil. My God it was good.

After dinner, they switched over to see the last few minutes of the Superbowl to find out what the score was and who one so that they would have something to talk about at work tomorrow. Eva changed the channel to some show called "What Not To Wear" and that was pretty interesting. Sunny, Jamie, and I ended up playing this really cool card game called Munchkin(?). It was a pretty cool card game. I was still learning the first game and ended up winning. We played a second game and I lost. It was a pretty fun game though. I didn't realize that it was 9PM when we completed the second game. I knew they had to work the next day and I didn't want to overstay my welcome, so I decided go to and thanked them everything. They enjoyed having me and I had a pretty good time interacting with them. I had some time to get to know them both better and I'm sure they got to know me better.