Finding My Soul

Will had called me up last night asking me to meet up with him. So at around 6:30pm I had got ready and headed out the door. I called him up as soon as I pulled up to his house. It turns out that I was supposed to meet him up in the Castro. My goodness, there has to be a better way to communicate out here. People just cannot hear me where I live or maybe I can't hear them. Anyway, reception sucks out here. It wasn't too much of a big deal, at least not until I get to the Castro. It's 7pm and there is no place to park. I practically drove around for an hour trying to find parking in the Castro. It was ridiculous. I was totally getting irritated. Eventually I found a parking spot. It was two blocks away from the Castro and I didn't have to worry about some nutbag hitting my car on the right side since it was a driveway. Score!

Anywho, I headed over to the corner of Market and Castro in front of Diesel where I usually meet up Will. I call him up, but he didn't answer. I thought that was kind of weird. I decided to text him and he ends up calling me a few minutes later. It turns out he was meeting up with his friends to retrieve the amp that he was borrowing. He called me back and told me he was in front of the theater. I started heading over to the theater and saw him talking on his phone as I was crossing the street. It's uncanny how I can pick him out of a crowd especially now that I don't have 20/15 vision anymore or so I think. I haven't been checked out in over a decade now. Eek! I really should get that done. I finally meet up with him and we head over to the car to put away the amp.

At this point, I really wanted to do something. Especially with the whole ordeal with the parking situation and all. I wanted to take advantage of my parking spot and do something on a Friday night. Will discussed options of what we were going to do and kept asking me what I wanted to do. To be honest, I really didn't care. The fact that I was out, on a Friday night for that matter, okay!!!!!!! Anyway, I just said f' it dude, let's just be spontaneous and do whatever. So that's exactly what we did. He took me to the Midnight Sun which is a bar that I have never been to. And for the first time, I didn't get carded. How awesome is that? When we get it, the place was packed. Will told me that it was Bear weekend or something like that. So, all the bears are out. I never experienced it, so why the heck not. The bar wasn't was I thought I had imagined it. I knew that it was like a video bar and stuff, at least that's what I had heard through word of mouth. I always imagined it to be dark like the other bars, but it was pretty well lit.

I met Will's friend Ben which happened to be celebrating his birthday that day. He's cute. What I liked about him was his smile. He has a great smile which instantly attracted me to him. Not only that, he just had this aura about him. He's a really sweet guy. Will bought me my first two drinks since it was two for one. At this point, I had totally forgotten that I hadn't eaten anything since lunch which probably wasn't such a good idea. I down the first drink pretty fast and worked on my second one. Ben introduced me to his friend Mohammed who was cute too. I actually met a few other people, but I don't remember their names. I'm surprised that I remembered Ben and Mohammed. I actually liked the bar. The people are a lot nicer. The guy next to me talked to me for a bit which is unusual. People usually don't talk to me at bars. They usually have attitude like they are the sh*t or something. Oh... the gays. Anywho, for the first time I didn't feel like that there. I was actually comfortable. Then again, it could've been the alcohol. I don't know how many drinks I had total, but I must have had at least six there because people bought me drinks. Uncanny how that works. To get drunk without spending your own money. That's genius.

After a while, we headed over to Badlands with Ben. I'm not sure how exactly we got there because I really don't remember that part. I'm sure we walked though. I don't even remember being carded going into Badlands and I ALWAYS get carded there. I don't even know if I drank there at all. I do remember dancing however. I LOVE dancing. I'm so glad that I have friends that dance. Not many of my friends care to dance and it makes me sad. I don't know what else to say because all I can remember is dancing and I was having so much fun dancing. I didn't give a crap about any guy or being judged by some queen or twink. I was just having so much fun dancing whether it was with Will, Ben, and even myself. Thank goodness for the dancing because I started to sober up a bit. Will had to go to work the next day so we left the bar at some point. At what time I had no idea. We did stop by the pizza place and had a slice of pizza. OMG, we were both so drunk. After having the pizza and several cups of water, I just couldn't do it anymore. I felt like I wanted to throw up and I do NOT want to throw up.

We headed back to my car and I started to feel a little bit better and comfortable driving. I still had that feeling of throwing up. I took the back roads home and almost feel asleep on the road to Will's house. I dropped him off and headed home. Of course, there was no where to park, so I just parked in front of the house blocking the driveway on the street. OMG, my head hurt so bad. I wanted to puke so bad. I went up to my room, stripped off all of my clothes, drank a little bit of water and passed out on my bed. I woke up this morning the biggest hangover ever. If I had to rate it, it would be the second worst hangover I've ever had. Number one being the day after I got to Anaheim for Gayday. Let's just say, I almost missed out on an entire day at Disneyland. I didn't get to go to the park until 3pm. Anyway, I drank a lot more water and laid down for a while. I didn't start feeling better until I cooked and ate breakfast. Last night was definitely an interesting night.