Finding My Soul

Well, I finally went on a date with Marc. He ended up calling in sick and playing hookie today. He wanted to have lunch and I thought why not. He liked Thai food, so we were going to meet somewhere in the City to have lunch. He kept text-messaging me as I was making my way over to the Powell Station. He asked me where I was at and I told him that I just got off the train. He said that he was by a coffee shop. There was one place that I thought of, but I didn't think that there are many cafe's at each of the stops. I had to call him once more to find that he was at the Plaza. I made my way over there and started walking down the stairs and saw him. He wasn't like I had imagined. He seemed taller in the picture and he wore glasses. I saw him take his phone out and start to call. I took out my phone to see if it was him and seconds later it rang. Sure enough it was him. He wasn't all that I had imagined him to be, but I'm just meeting him for the first time so it really didn't matter to me. Talking to him on the phone this past week, he's been really nice and sweet.

We started heading down Powell street going towards the Thai place that I had looked up. I failed to get the address of the restaurant, so we were a bit lost. We spent some time walking up and down the hills trying to find the place. I tried to look at a map, but it didn't help much. I even tried to ask this guy at a store, but he was not very helpful. I knew that it was somewhere near Taylor, but no luck. Eventually, we stopped into a coffee place and asked where there was a Thai place. They were very nice and directed us to a different Thai place. We ended up going to a place called Osha Thai.

We sat down and I had him give suggestions on what to eat since he's eaten at Thai places before. He suggested that I order the Cashew Chicken and he ordered some kind of noodle soup with different types of balls. We shared each others food and had a pretty decent time talking. After that we headed to the movie theaters at the City Centre where we had to pick between Ghost of Girlfriends Past and X-Men Origins: Wolverine. I had him decide while I went to use the bathroom. It took me a while since I was looking for the restroom. When I came back, he thought that I ditched him. Anyway, he decided on Wolverine, so I bought the tickets since he bought lunch. We sat down and watched the movie. I had no idea that Ryan Reynolds was in the movie. The movie was pretty good. After that we walked up and down Market street until it was time to go home.

He sent me a message thanking me for a good time. I responded and thanked him for lunch. He mentioned that he wanted to kiss me, but that he was being respectful. With all honesty, I didn't find him attractive and just want to be friends, but I think he wants more. I wanted to wait to respond to him when I got home because the train was packed. I didn't want to be texting in the middle of all that. He kept sending me messages and calling me. I had called Will earlier to tell him that I was just on a date. When I got home and saw how many times he messaged me and called, I started to feel uncomfortable. I tried calling Will again, but he didn't pick up. I finally called Marc back and told him that it's ok. I explained to him what happened and he was fine.

Will finally called me back and I told him what happened. He said that that was a big red flag. He was calling me and texting me. It was a bit overwhelming. He was right though. I just wanted to be friends and it seems like he wants more. He told me that I need to tell him that we're just friends and that I don't owe him anything since I just met him. I don't want to hurt the guys feelings, but Will is right. I don't want to lead him on either. He suggested that I tell him that we are just friends.