Finding My Soul

Saturday I received several text messages from Danny about what we were doing tonight. To be honest, I really wasn't sure. The only reason that I was really going out was to see him again. I convinced Will to come with me later that night. I wasn't sure where to go and I remember that Danny was planning on going to Badlands that night. Will really wasn't in the mood to go there, but I really didn't care. We ended up going there anyway even though Will didn't want to. I really didn't know why until I got there that night.

He had wanted to get there before 10pm so that he wouldn't have to pay a cover charge which is a good reason to go early. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to make it because I took a while to get ready. Poor guy got there really early and needed me to get there soon due to all the Asians hitting on him. I eventually got there and it was packed. Not as packed as it was going to be later that evening, but packed enough to where there were people everywhere. We grabbed a couple drinks and he was instantly attracted to the bartender who was tall with tattoos.

Anyway, we stood there and waited for Danny to show up. The longer we waited, the more drinks we had. By the time Danny had arrived, I had drank about four glasses of something. He had sent me a text message informing me that "they" were here. I saw him outside the window and noticed that he had a different look to him. As he got closer to the door, my face developed a smile until the moment he introduced me to his boyfriend. I should've expected as much, but the romantic in me didn't want to believe. And there he was right in front of me. Danny introduced what's his name to me and I just smiled and said that it was nice to meet him.

The boyfriend went off to the bar as Danny conversed with me. I had introduced him to Will with whom was being such a friend to come with me. Danny and I spent most of the night talking about what was going on with him when I confronted him about his not so cheery disposition. To my dismay, he began to talk to me about his boyfriend and the fight that they had prior to coming to the bar. I didn't know what to do, but just try to be a friend. I had to try to be a friend to someone with whom I have only known for one night. Someone that I was attracted to and with whom I thought had similar feelings. I was confused and drunk at the same time. Not at all an uncommon combination.

I spent that time telling him to follow his heart. He asked me if he should break up with him, but I know that's not my right to tell him because that would've been for selfish reasons. The only thing I could do was suggest that he do what he felt is right. I explained that his happiness must come first and no one else, an advice that I should be following myself. Anyway, he continued to talk and say how funny things are even though things weren't funny at all. The only thing keeping me from being disappointed was my drunken stupor. I gave him the best advice that I could give. He mentioned "red flags" that happened with his last relationship and ended up taking the time to explain them before he understood.

Will was being a friend and gave us some time with each other. I didn't know it at the time, but he did. At least that's what he told me the next day and he's a good friend for that. After a while, the boyfriend prompted them to go home and Danny ended up leaving. He asked me if it would be okay for him to call me the next day and I told him that it would be fine. He left soonafter with his boyfriend and left me at the corner next to the window by myself. I think Will bought me another drink which pushed me beyond the brink of drunkenness.

We left the bar and went to eat pizza. Will says that pizza is so good after drinking. All I know was that I was really drunk. He bought me pizza and we sat down to eat. We met these two people next to us and ended up befriending them. The girl was named Jenn and the guy Nelson, both of which are Asian. They were cool and a lot of fun. Will told me that I was hilarious. I sat next to Nelson and he happened to be cute for an Asian guy. And I am definitely not into Asian men. In this case, he's a boy at the age of 21. It's all good though. They were both cool and during the short time we spent with them, we had a blast. What was even more cool is that Nelson offered to take us home. That was really nice of them. I'm drunk. I'm tired. I got a party to go to tomorrow. I'm going to bed.