Finding My Soul

This weekend has been one of the best times in my life, yet it was one of the most confusing. Friday, I met up with some of my co-workers at a bar in the Castro. My friend Cris was bringing his brother in law who was coming down to visit from Brazil. It turns out that he's gay and he introduce him to me so that I can show him around the Castro while he is in California. I was waiting for my friend Will, but something is going on with him. I've been noticing it for a while, but I didn't want to bother him about it since he also found out that his grandmother has Alzeimer's. Basically, he ended up not showing up or going home. I was worried about him to.

Anyway, I hung out with Cris and his brother in law Leo. Leo is kind of cute. I wasn't sure what to expect, but he's a nice guy. I really liked the atmosphere at Toad Hall. It was a more mature crowd and pretty mixed. There were some pretty cute guys there. There were barely any queens in there. There were several attractive guys there that I was checking out. There was one tall older guy that had checked me out. I smiled at him, but I didn't pursue it. There was another cute guy that walked around a lot. I thought he was cute, but I was too shy to say anything. I didn't know if he was interested or not, but I sensed he was a bit arrogant. Freakin' Cris bought me a shot of Tequila and I don't do those very well. I couldn't say no and I had to down the shot. Thank goodness it was earlier in the evening.

Cammy brought her friend Espy with her. I hadn't seen her in a while. It finally was getting more enjoyable when they showed up. They joined us on the dance floor and we danced for a little bit. They went and got drinks before we headed to the back where they wanted to smoke and this is where things got interesting. I was actually having a great time. Suddenly this very cute guy walked in and stood behind one of my friends. He was standing there with his friend and he immediately caught my attention. He had the most adorable smile and one of the nicest eyes I've ever seen. I saw him look at my direction a few times when he started to whisper something to Espy. Espy introduced us to him. His name was Danny. The moment he opened his mouth, the sexiest thing just spoke with an accent and I almost melted. Here I was talking to this attractively cute guy with an accent that is possibly attracted to me.

He initiated a lot of the conversations. He was sweet and spent most of the time conversing with me. He talked to the others every once in a while since we were in a group, but there were times when it was just him and I. I complimented him on his eyes and his appearance for which he was thankful for. Through our conversations I found that he was 23 years old. He comes from Union City and his parents are from Spain. He had one of the greatest smiles I've ever seen. At one point, some guy came and started to talk to him. It turned out to be someone he knew, so I went back to talk to the others. After a while, he returned my circle of friends and asked to talk to me personally on the other side of the yard.

So, I followed him and he apologized to me about the guy who had come up to talk to him. He told me that he was supposedly a friend, but that he was a drama queen. Those weren't the exact words, but that's pretty much what he was trying to say. I told him that it was fine. I really didn't mind. I thought that it was very thoughtful for him to say so even though it wasn't necessary. We went back to my friends and continued to converse with them. Leo and Cammy went and got some shots while we talked about his going to school in Hayward and living in the ghetto. He had this cute smile that just was adorable. Cammy and Leo came back bringing back several shots of Petron. They even brought some for Danny and his friend Randy. It was some potent stuff. Man, I can't stand tequila.

Anyway, Cammy took some pictures of us with her camera. He had his arm around me and I had my arm around him. Cammy several pictures of him and I, but there was no flash. After a while, Danny asked me for my phone number. They told me to get his phone number prior, but I didn't think I should at that point. He ended up asking first. He got my number, put it on his cell phone and called it. So, I saved his number on my phone. I asked him if I can get a picture of him on my phone just so that I would know who it was. So, he let me. He didn't seem to like the picture, but he didn't mind. I started feel special. Finally someone is interested in me and in pursuit of me. Yeah, he's a little young for me, but at this point in my life, I can't be picky. Besides, if nothing comes of it, at least I would gain a friend which is something I need more of around here.

They were closing the back yard and moved us to the dance floor. We ended up dancing until the close of the bar. Leo was very disappointed that the bar was closing so early. They kept trying to get us to leave. Initially, he shook my hand before we parted. He gave everyone else a hug, so I said goodbye again and gave him a hug goodbye before we left. Sometime during the evening, I had overheard that he may have a boyfriend. Even though I had a really nice time with him, I was confused at why he would be asking for my number if he has a boyfriend. I don't know what's going on, but I'm just going to be happy about how the night went. And to think, I wasn't planning on going out that night. I'm glad that I did.